Joseph Eldon Smith

 

 

Dessa may God be with you and give you some peace and comfort.  It is so hard without our precious sons with us!!!!  My heart is with you.  Love you and sending you big hugs.

Joseph You know we could always talk about everything. It seems like now I am dumping all my problems on you. I just want you to be happy. I know our precious Lord is protecting you from all the pain in this world. I have decided not to do the holidays this year. (You know why). I can hear you tell me to snap out of it but Joseph I am so lost. I have been lost for a long time and I don't know what to do anymore. I am tired I don't sleep and I am in pain 24/7. Is it in my head am I losing my mind. I just don't know. I miss you so much Joseph I just want to go outside and scream and let everyone know I miss you so much. Life just keeps going on. I don't fit in it anymore. Son I have started counceling I have a big problem. I can't remember a lot of things. Some say I try to hard some say it was that seizure I had but it's not fair. I have lost you and I have lost a lot of our lives together. Tell ma-ma and pa-pa I do love them very much. One day we will be together. Give all your friends big hugs from me and let them know I love them so much and I love their families. I feel like I am letting so many families down. I can't sit at the computer very long with my back. I love you Joseph. I pray you hear me I pray you are right beside me. Hugs and kisses my angel. Your Mom forever loves you