Dessa may God be with you and give you some peace and comfort.  It is so hard without our precious sons with us!!!!  My heart is with you.  Love you and sending you big hugs.

Joseph You know we could always talk about everything. It seems like now I am dumping all my problems on you. I just want you to be happy. I know our precious Lord is protecting you from all the pain in this world. I have decided not to do the holidays this year. (You know why). I can hear you tell me to snap out of it but Joseph I am so lost. I have been lost for a long time and I don't know what to do anymore. I am tired I don't sleep and I am in pain 24/7. Is it in my head am I losing my mind. I just don't know. I miss you so much Joseph I just want to go outside and scream and let everyone know I miss you so much. Life just keeps going on. I don't fit in it anymore. Son I have started counceling I have a big problem. I can't remember a lot of things. Some say I try to hard some say it was that seizure I had but it's not fair. I have lost you and I have lost a lot of our lives together. Tell ma-ma and pa-pa I do love them very much. One day we will be together. Give all your friends big hugs from me and let them know I love them so much and I love their families. I feel like I am letting so many families down. I can't sit at the computer very long with my back. I love you Joseph. I pray you hear me I pray you are right beside me. Hugs and kisses my angel. Your Mom forever loves you

Dear Dessa Thank You for continuing to light candles while I am

recovering.Please keep me in prayer as I  was told my right leg is dying and they may have to amputate below my right knee.I had 4 stents put in last week and I remain hopeful.God is good and I feel no news is as bad as the news that my son was dead.I know you know what I mean.I regret not being able to light candles like I used to due to the pain I am in.Pain pills are truly wonderful,so if I mispell any words you'll know why.Hey Joe  I miss all our angels,know that I think of all of you daily and your precious families.Love and God Bless and tell Nicky not to worry